Signal

I can’t tell you what exactly is going to be of me
I can’t tell if am gwein make it, or if I will cease
This is so hard, so confusing, that it’s all a mess,
But with the lesson of this heart break, somehow I can tell…

That I might change pretty much, become my opposite,
I could become the man that you want me to be,
And change my points of view you could think of on life
And be the family man you always dreamed and wished

I’d sing those boring lovesongs those I hate for me
I’d even fix my issues that I still don’t fix,
But as the change is comming I can tell for sure
My love for you’d be gone, for you belittled me.

Don’t need to change that much, babe, I can tell you that
Don’t even need my night to end, or walk that far
A man did chase affection walking on his knees,
But couldn’t fit the roll you wanted me to keep

The clothes you want for me to wear are way too tight
Therefore the ones I wished for you are wide and hang
We better keep our nakedness, and run barefeet,
The charms and beauty never counted, not for me.

You wanted me to change, and be another man?
You could not find a life of peace on what I had?
You want certifications to self validate?
You say am insecure, but my beliefs are safe.

You wanted me to change, and play another roll?
You got it; now I took you out of my own world
You think you couldn’t handle me the way I was?
How fun that now my change, won’t handle you right back.

Your killing indecision killed me bit by bit.
You say what fits you best; you know I tried my best.
You wanted heaven signals? Take this one right now,
The hope of one could die if you don’t feed the love.

Your dream upon a star, have finally become true,
I changed under this all, and I did change for good,
My love is pure, the anguish goes, my life has a new mood
And after plenty change, I lost my dreams of you.

Be(Eats)

Sometimes it feels like
I gotta keep hope,
Sometimes its clear that
I better freeze cold.
Some days one feels like
Am victim of them
Sometimes its me,
Who did not do fair…

And none of that matters cuz
Doesn’t really matter who’s right or wrong
Its pointless to keep seeking
Who digged out this hole
There is no resurrection
Finding who killed love
My heart cant jus keep bleeding,
For its dry and frown.

Some day, any how,
Am going to find the missing piece,
To solve the blues,
It might not be the one I think

Life’s secuences of curse and bliss,
Of highs and lows, eternal risks,
Is there a sense on live to tell?
When there is no one that gives a damn?

As the days do go by
And our latest goodbye
Gets to heights and start flying…
Part of me wonders why,
Did not work on this time,
Can’t conceive what is happening…

Sometimes it feels like
Its quite my fault,
Sometimes its clear that
You caused it all
Some days one feels like
We both go wrong,
There are also flavors,
When guilt is gone…

And none of that matters cuz
Doesn’t really matter who’s right or wrong
Its pointless to keep seeking
Who digged out this hole
There is no resurrection
Finding who killed love
My heart cant jus keep bleeding,
For its dry and frown.

As the nights do go by
And my pillow’s stands by
How does a human cope with solitude?
When you give all then
You loose it all then,
How much can one bear whistling this looser tune?

And none of that matters cuz
Doesn’t really matter who’s right or wrong
Its pointless to keep seeking
Who digged out this hole
There is no resurrection
Finding who killed love
My heart cant jus keep bleeding,
For its dry and frown.
But it’s never been killed
It beats hard and strong.

Am|Be|Valiant

Am the lucky cursed
Am the shiny crap
Am the free in prison,
Am the bright less star,
Am the one that envies,
Those I use to give,
Plenty for all those,
But seems to lack for me
Am the blessed who’s punished
Am proudly deceived,
Am the naked covered,
The spot and the sheet
Am the sense in madness,
A crazy who thinks,
If nor hot or cold,
Someone’s puking me.

Become

The crush became love,
The love became hopes,
The hopes became wait,
The wait became loss,

The loss became rage,
The anger feeding me
With the energy needed,
To stand up and keep…

There is nothing to prove,
Before your own light
If you think am wrong,
Then probably am right…

I had a show right
Before you appeared
You are not in the show,
You made it so clear.

If you are out of cast,
It is what it is…
But the show still goes on,
And it can’t without me.

The loss became depth
The depth became rage
Don’t let rage evolve,
I don’t want to hate

So, let the show go on…
Let the game begin
Deflower the gardens,
And shed all the tears…

From this moment on,
Am changing the scripts,
The tears I am dropping
I drop them for me…

Nightwish

I wish I would

Reach so late that
The world could still
Look charming
Reach so early that
I could get hope
From dawning

I wish I would,
As you did too…

I wish I could,
Feel free to act
With broad wide smiles,
Without the thinking
On hidden bombs
Under our feet,
As clocks are ticking

I wish I could,
I wish I would

See flowers bloom,
And feel fresh breezes
As I run over the grasses,
Bestow the spikes of wheat

Keep on dreaming steadfast
While I keep awake
I believe my seeds
Somehow compensate

I wish you would
See giants whipping
Little men
To load their burdens
See weakened
Lonely people
Lead revolutes
And conquests

I wish you would,
Like I did too…

Path

Am not afraid, my love,
Not afraid of this,
Not afraid of trying hard,
Fight with burdened fists,
I am not afraid to jump,
From skycrapper’s heights,
Is it life to stay in hold,
Or is it life to stand?

If this is about a love,
Everlasting one,
Isn’t it just like a gold,
And it worhts paying high?
With our effort, with our tears,
With reshaping molds,
Without giving up so fast,
Steadfast, brave and bold?

I will stick to walk this path
Trying to find the dawn,
And if sun never shows up,
All the stars are shown
And this poem hides the path,
To the our pot of gold,
I would love it if you come
No more search alone…

Am not afraid, my love,
This time we’ll do fine
Someone’s guiding us above,
Can you see the light?
I am not afraid my love,
Am to take this risk,
If you dare, you won’t be alone
You’ll be here, with me.

Nuff-O U

It’s been Nuff-O U
I tried by heart,
But am thru
Am Sick and tired
Of Ur rules
Causes blue,
Shame on U…

Eye seen Nuff-O U
A tender  kiss,
Then a hook
And from the lips
Honey drops,
But then a curse
And then it’s worse

Eye heard Nuff o U
Holy words,
Juxtaposed
And when U flirt
With that man,
U test me out
But U don’t pass

U R free, fly Away
Eye might 2
Break your chains
For I’ve been
Sitting down
Waiting on
Hollowed mox

Am free, Eye won’t wait
Fake souls
Give no fate
U might have
A charming swag
Lovely talk
Not a heart

Find Uself his arms
Encoded On mi lines,
Cinders Of a love
Doomed by
Nevermore’s

Now who can
Mend this heart?
What’s left
Beyond charms?
Nice shell,
With no pearls
Stealing mines,
Stealing mines…

Girl Eye seen
Nuff O U
Am fed of this,
Nuff O U
U blunt me,
Nuff O U
Nuff O U,
Nuff O U,
Nuff O U
U blunt me,
Nuff O U
Nuff O U,
Nuff O U,
Nuff O U

Raw

Rust steel,
Odds on me
Empty streets,
Locust plagues
Dim light
Anguished souls
Moaning tears
Oaths of ghosts
Rawness
Rub your lips
Instead
Smart concrets
U find any sense on
Loosing ways
On that man?
Since you
Think of me
Madly think you
Excite wrecks?

D|is|Ember

D|is|Ember 14th, D birth of an Atlantis
A purple town, a D|fferent kind of axis,
Anointed by D Luv & D D|votion,
My D|Own|Town is off, D king ain’t Emotion.

Surrendered away all, D Verse City,
Investing my own diversity
Dust matters blown by wind lack pity…
Did someone die inside a little?

D|is|Ember 14th, foundation of a new way
Complexity is a truth, but never cross quick gates
Am walking on D glass, my toe scars looks so perfect…
Do U B-live in love? Do U B-live in mend?

& Babylon has fallen quickly
Eye told her 2 B-ware D kitty,
D tribulation comes, am victim
Don’t ever let them take U picnee…

D|is|Ember 14th, 19-91,
2 weeks b4 a birth date, somebody dies in pain
Somebody’s seed is fruitful, after D strong collide,
D Rainbow Children harvest, & like D sun they rise.

Don’t ever 4get am dreaming,
Don’t ever get sleep, Awake!
Don’t ever B-live, B-livin’,
B-live with open wide eyes

All along D Watcthower
Hear U sing around D watch
D|is|Ember 14th, new kind of axis,
Immersed now, 4ever lasts…

D|Stance.

You don’t need to understand, neither grasp, nor to care.
There is no need to get no stress, no dig in, no headaches.
There’s no need of zooming glass, no big efforts to catch
Messages I just express, to puke out, not to define…

You don’t need to question me, classify, from my words
You were warned from day one: feelings ain’t my whole mold.
My complexity has been stripped out, from the start
Never showed you not a veil, cover sheets, not a mask…

Haven’t I been clear on that? Have I hided what I look like?
Have my monsters been disguised? Lied to you with a fact?
Have I cheated you in a thing? Why did you keep silence at,
Things you might want say and still, never speak, who’s been masked?

My reality is just for me, not for you, it might bite.
When I share it with the world, it’s to share, just for that.
The only thing you will find out if you seek any truth
Is am master of mistakes, am perplexed, and am dark.

Our dimensions are the truth, you know deep in your heart
You might try to be so clear, but inside twisters fight.
The big difference that you’ll find, is I take things for real
While some others state to build always clean (over sands)…

Haven’t I been clear on that? Have I hided what I think like?
Have my words gone against me when I mean different from that?
Have you ever been confused, and took a picture of that?
Have you seen the things I write are mental pictures of mine?

Have I ever asked a change in your style, in your mind?
Have I pointed something wrong, like if I were so right?
We are so different yet I did not try change you… did I?
Not an aggressive comment on your differences with mine.

You don’t need to understand, neither grasp, nor to care.
There is no need to get no stress, no dig in, no headaches.
If this makes a load on you, simply drop and don’t stand.
For I love you as you are, never tweak, never mind.

Complex, as it is my world, I do love you like that
And I do contain my world not to harm you sometimes.
And ambiguous as I am, something has never changed,
You have crowns within this kingdom of weird and bizarre.