Signal

I can’t tell you what exactly is going to be of me
I can’t tell if am gwein make it, or if I will cease
This is so hard, so confusing, that it’s all a mess,
But with the lesson of this heart break, somehow I can tell…

That I might change pretty much, become my opposite,
I could become the man that you want me to be,
And change my points of view you could think of on life
And be the family man you always dreamed and wished

I’d sing those boring lovesongs those I hate for me
I’d even fix my issues that I still don’t fix,
But as the change is comming I can tell for sure
My love for you’d be gone, for you belittled me.

Don’t need to change that much, babe, I can tell you that
Don’t even need my night to end, or walk that far
A man did chase affection walking on his knees,
But couldn’t fit the roll you wanted me to keep

The clothes you want for me to wear are way too tight
Therefore the ones I wished for you are wide and hang
We better keep our nakedness, and run barefeet,
The charms and beauty never counted, not for me.

You wanted me to change, and be another man?
You could not find a life of peace on what I had?
You want certifications to self validate?
You say am insecure, but my beliefs are safe.

You wanted me to change, and play another roll?
You got it; now I took you out of my own world
You think you couldn’t handle me the way I was?
How fun that now my change, won’t handle you right back.

Your killing indecision killed me bit by bit.
You say what fits you best; you know I tried my best.
You wanted heaven signals? Take this one right now,
The hope of one could die if you don’t feed the love.

Your dream upon a star, have finally become true,
I changed under this all, and I did change for good,
My love is pure, the anguish goes, my life has a new mood
And after plenty change, I lost my dreams of you.

Be(Eats)

Sometimes it feels like
I gotta keep hope,
Sometimes its clear that
I better freeze cold.
Some days one feels like
Am victim of them
Sometimes its me,
Who did not do fair…

And none of that matters cuz
Doesn’t really matter who’s right or wrong
Its pointless to keep seeking
Who digged out this hole
There is no resurrection
Finding who killed love
My heart cant jus keep bleeding,
For its dry and frown.

Some day, any how,
Am going to find the missing piece,
To solve the blues,
It might not be the one I think

Life’s secuences of curse and bliss,
Of highs and lows, eternal risks,
Is there a sense on live to tell?
When there is no one that gives a damn?

As the days do go by
And our latest goodbye
Gets to heights and start flying…
Part of me wonders why,
Did not work on this time,
Can’t conceive what is happening…

Sometimes it feels like
Its quite my fault,
Sometimes its clear that
You caused it all
Some days one feels like
We both go wrong,
There are also flavors,
When guilt is gone…

And none of that matters cuz
Doesn’t really matter who’s right or wrong
Its pointless to keep seeking
Who digged out this hole
There is no resurrection
Finding who killed love
My heart cant jus keep bleeding,
For its dry and frown.

As the nights do go by
And my pillow’s stands by
How does a human cope with solitude?
When you give all then
You loose it all then,
How much can one bear whistling this looser tune?

And none of that matters cuz
Doesn’t really matter who’s right or wrong
Its pointless to keep seeking
Who digged out this hole
There is no resurrection
Finding who killed love
My heart cant jus keep bleeding,
For its dry and frown.
But it’s never been killed
It beats hard and strong.

Am|Be|Valiant

Am the lucky cursed
Am the shiny crap
Am the free in prison,
Am the bright less star,
Am the one that envies,
Those I use to give,
Plenty for all those,
But seems to lack for me
Am the blessed who’s punished
Am proudly deceived,
Am the naked covered,
The spot and the sheet
Am the sense in madness,
A crazy who thinks,
If nor hot or cold,
Someone’s puking me.

Nuff-O U

It’s been Nuff-O U
I tried by heart,
But am thru
Am Sick and tired
Of Ur rules
Causes blue,
Shame on U…

Eye seen Nuff-O U
A tender  kiss,
Then a hook
And from the lips
Honey drops,
But then a curse
And then it’s worse

Eye heard Nuff o U
Holy words,
Juxtaposed
And when U flirt
With that man,
U test me out
But U don’t pass

U R free, fly Away
Eye might 2
Break your chains
For I’ve been
Sitting down
Waiting on
Hollowed mox

Am free, Eye won’t wait
Fake souls
Give no fate
U might have
A charming swag
Lovely talk
Not a heart

Find Uself his arms
Encoded On mi lines,
Cinders Of a love
Doomed by
Nevermore’s

Now who can
Mend this heart?
What’s left
Beyond charms?
Nice shell,
With no pearls
Stealing mines,
Stealing mines…

Girl Eye seen
Nuff O U
Am fed of this,
Nuff O U
U blunt me,
Nuff O U
Nuff O U,
Nuff O U,
Nuff O U
U blunt me,
Nuff O U
Nuff O U,
Nuff O U,
Nuff O U

Raw

Rust steel,
Odds on me
Empty streets,
Locust plagues
Dim light
Anguished souls
Moaning tears
Oaths of ghosts
Rawness
Rub your lips
Instead
Smart concrets
U find any sense on
Loosing ways
On that man?
Since you
Think of me
Madly think you
Excite wrecks?

Swim

I still don’t understand it… guess I won’t grasp it away
This tendency to hologram you, like if I could really stay in there
Like if you’d really stand the rain, stay thru this mad torment
I didn’t want much more than that, just two ears, just being there…

I guess I will never get it nothing is truly for real
Nothing is going take forever, nobody is going to relief
Its not about how much am giving, for I gave it all, truly did…
It’s not how much am really getting, I wasn’t quite shopping… you see?

Am asking you forgiveness for thinking you could be the friend I seek
It should have been aggressive to feel I burdened you with it…
My mind plays tricks on me, and you could almost feel so real
It felt so nice, so warming, but now I know it’s chilling breeze

You still don’t understand me and never-mind about it, please
If I myself can’t get it… is there a sense in you trying this?
Like if you’d really stand the rain, stay thru this mad torment
I didn’t want much more than that, just two ears, just being there…

I guess we’ll never get it, people seek for it,
Some of us do offer, some of us do steal
Some of us don’t see it, when its really there
Some of us do bet it all and bankruptcy is dead end

Am asking you forgiveness for placing such high stakes on you
I never meant to hurt you… Indeed, you see, I got hurt too
I hope you get the strength out, to stay the tempests when you should
I hope you get the friends, I thought I finally found on you…

We’ll never understand it…
We’ll never overcome with it
When floating by an ocean,
Sometimes we stuck instead of swim…
I’m gonna miss you…

Enter

I won’t need anymore
Call your attention or bliss
And this time I won’t keep
Not any trace of hope
Not any hint of light
Or any flame that flicks
This time I’ll keep my word
Won’t make a fool of me
Enter a brand new need.
Am not declaring words
In a bottle of scented oil
Tinted with rage and torns
Fighting against beliefs
Others might find a way
Run thru it and reach place
Yelling a pledge of triumph
Owning a bed to rest
Uncertain fate and dooms
Any suspicious hint
Nastyness on two sides
Yerned a tragic thing
Mighty sun of black holes
On your own gravity
Rotates my planet now
Exhalation of breath
Why did this have to go
I thought I could benefit
Fists did beat up the hope
Enter a brand new need
One can’t stay quite alone
Falling just piece by piece
Mute like nothing goes on
Instead of moving things
Need to move on, my love
Enter a brand new need.

Wedding Gift

Unlike the other days, this time is about you
It’s not about heartbreaks, or madly loving you
Its not like am crying and thinking of you
Nor like ghouls envy possessed me thru

I know that you said that am vexed about this
You finding a true love, and me without thee
Like the king solomon without that pretty girl
Who picked up the humble instead of his pearls

The gossip did spread all around from your mouth
The crowds made the lines you wrote
And I left the thing like it was for our good
My level is different and thats not included

My silence and distance have been my reply
My respect to this, my sweetest goodbye
At last if this made you feel nice and desired
Let gossip be real for your esteem to be upraised

And now that you marry with this one at last
And ended up your cycle of playing seek and hide
Right now: when you finally seem say what you mean
And mean what you say, you finally healed

Am posting you this, in this hiding place
That you always spy, but you never tell
And you cannot answer, but you always read
And fake you ignore, and I play you don’t see

Am letting you know, that am glad you are his bride
Am glad that you are going into a new stage of life
I wish you the best, and I hope you might find
The peace settled spirit you have been seeking in pasts

I surely won’t show at your wedding that day
I can’t stand the queer eyes, the gossips and sneaks
I’ll make my own excuse, and probably won’t lie,
Is easy for me to be busy at all times

Be happy, go good, be blessed, and believe
Rely on your God when you’re hard times make you bleed
May your joy be soared, happy for eternities
That’s all I can give, that’s my best wedding gift.

Void

If I work out muscles and have a nice shape
If my voice can melt any female’s ears,
If I read books and know all about it
but about my soul, I just can’t dive deep
What’s the use? Whats the use?

If I get success and I win applauses,
And the bows I gave now come back to me,
If I get no noes from no one around me
And that ain’t safety of no loyalty
Whats the use? Whats the use?

What’s the use of those singing praises
Shaking in the temple, praying on their knees,
If the one on top blinds them with fake teachings
And the wallet’s glow has divinity?
What’s the use? Why this use?

What’s the use of all of these verses
The blood I pour on writing texts like these
Is it that as mankind we feel like glowing
Even though we shine under vacuity?
What’s the use? What’s the use?

And she’s left again, and my heart is moaning,
And my mind learning, as I drop my tears,
But my love’s still there, caged, whole, and throbbing,
For a mystery, for I want to live…
What’s the use? Why that use?

Take a look with me, scrutinize with your eyes
Let your own mind reach what I have just reached
Many of our deeds, when you watch them closely
Are rich in vanity, have no perspective…
What’s the use? What’s the use?

Have

Have no secret high mountain to run and scream from
Have no time to go just in case it would be so…
Have no way to express all the movements and throbbing,
Have you ever experienced all you need is go running?
Have this rage in my self against my feelings, and me
Have to go all the way going like something’s not reached?
Have to keep unadulterated this empty soul breeze?
Have to go all the way in this war within me?
Have to keep alive hope that she’s coming someday,
Have to dream it is possible what’s never been there?
Have to breath once again, and exhale on a way where,
Have to keep myself walking, and have to be there?
Have to start a new order inside all I have
Have to see what I have, have to keep what I have
Have to blow the skyscrapers that built on their names
Have to build once again; this time humble is the game
Have to hammer my brain with the nails of new hopes
Have to know it is painful, but has to be done
Have to get peace.
Have to keep going.
Have to get rid of all this…
Have to go.