F|Light

What hurts this time,
If this isn’t just that new?
What suffocates now,
If you had breath long before?

What do you tear?
If all the liquid is gone,
For you have been dehydrated,
For some chapters before?

She’s alright;
She might have coped now;
Renewed her life,
Maybe someone’s ‘round

She was so calmed down,
And always focused
She understood
Pain’s something pointless

How much you think on
What she’s been doing?
How much you check mail
Seeking for some her?

How much your cell phone,
For wished messages?
How much a hue for
Something that’s missing?

Am falling,
For I fell In love
Am falling deep down
In a twisted hole

Am falling
From skyscrapers
And am scared of seeing that ground
I might end death

Get back to you!
Don’t be afraid!
You already know your monsters
Already there

Get back to you!
Seek for the light,
Keep moving your weakened wings til
Until you fly!

Get a new love, how about you?
Get a new hope, how about hue?
Get a new goal, how about dreams?
Get a new sky, for broken wings.

F|Or|Ward

How much to take in this business?
How much to pay in this crisis?
Unsuccessful episodes
Of love got me displeased

How much can I keep this love
Remaining bright and still possible?
How much to dig seeking treasures
That turn out fake and combustible?

How much to ask things like those
Crying like a baby in punishment?
Showing how feeble I am;
A celebration of funerals?

How much more fantasies done
And then wake up from daydreaming?
How much perfectly, almost, but
Impossible for one difference?

How much to take in this business?
How much to pay in this crisis?
How much shall I swim like fish
In a filthy sea full of feces?

I want to get frail on my feebleness
Flying freely far from feeling angry
Shall I stop thinking on diss F-Words?
Is there sense on let them knock me?

Is time to move forward;
And it doesn’t spell with U
It is without U,
As my life without U

F|All|In’

Am coming in nakedness,
In this trial to you
And I don’t like my bareness,
Not a bit, not at all
And I feel like exposed,
Showing I lack your hue
But this is what I do have;
This is all I can hold

I just cannot take
The skin off of myself
I can’t take this tattoo out,
Am so sorry. I guess,
I cannot ban the ghoulness
Of how upset I am
Of the bleeding that flows,
When I open my chest

I want to take out
Everything I got,
Feels so empty inside,
Being so full of that
Some of them never look
Over my hurting scares and
Cannot take what I am,
For I chain up their paths.

I guess I can’t come out of the Shell that I am
The skin that does wrap me,
And binds me a path
Can’t you see how messed up,
How dysfunctional am?
Can’t you see how I hurt her,
And she damaged me back?

I will love you always,
This my heart stops beating,
I have nowhere to run,
And no one else can listen
From the skyscraper heights,
Closed my eyes and am falling
Falling into your love,
Falling into your baggage.

F|Ears

A paralyzed man
Staring at the T.V.
Over a cracked couch
Barely moves and blinks

A pause into time
A queue of rest and breaks
Furtively wishing death
Crushed on a breathless bliss

Why did that have to turn?
How could a drained heart bleed?
How to become again?
How to rebuild the bridge?

A still and sad man
A bunch of attached dreams
The curtains of what he lacks,
Detachment all there is

Will the cracked soul mend up?
Now that iceberg melts and heats
The doubts of me trying to trust
Fighting my giant fears.

F|Or|Give

I just hope for the end of this all…
When the fireflies shut down their lights
When the fury has gone, and by far
And our fighting has ceased, and we’re calm…

When we finally hold from a hand,
And be able to form a new pact,
When frustration makes balance with ups,
Regardless if its my hand or someone’s

When the fire and water co-exist
When our continents tie by a bridge
When the battle is over for us,
And we cry what we’ve lost, our defeats

I just hope when we both go thru that,
We’d be able to still have a word
That anoints us, and bathes us like oil,
Re-creating us so that we heal

When the shotguns have ceased the fire
Armageddon has come to an end
Tribulations belong to the past
And forthcoming be plenty and breeze

When the magma could solidify
When the winds lower up the degrees
Of the heat that has crushed up our hearts
Phantom cities, that somehow still bleed…

I just hope that when all that goes by
We still have the aforementioned breath
And I vow I will try with my heart
For this love, I’ll be prone to forgive.

F|In|Ish|It

She just logged on in
How to sign this off?
How could we mend up,
If this is break up?

How come do we start
The dialog to end up
Please, do hurry up,
Know what you’re about…

Don’t even say hi
You shouldn’t play wise
Don’t broadcast a signal
With interlaced casts

I should have prevailed
Not believing this
Now my heart is broken
Bitter bleeding kiss

Your sword: emoticons
Weapon: fingertips
Vacuity in the source,
Holograms diminish

The silliest affair
A cold frozen kiss
I gave out my heart
For placebo bliss

Its time I move on
Beyond digital things
My love is not to byte
This love: was it real?

F|Ant|Tastic II

I never paid attention
How did I get to think
When such into perfection
This matter ends in grief?

And once I realized
The happiness for me
I tried to go for rest and
By dawn I had this chills

When I opened up my eyes
I could no move my neck
Something had tied me down
Some huge weird spider web

The spider came across
With a devilish laugh
And when she moaned a word
I knew what’s all about

The voice tone that I heard
Mocking cruelty on me
“I warned you to wake up,
I told you don’t believe”

The spider was myself!
The spider web I weaved!
My curse: thinking that love
Could go beyond a dream.

F|Ain’t

Last night I dreamed
We had given birth a sweet baby
I don’t remember name or sex,
I was so joyful I skipped it
I remember the tender, the smells, The amusing softness of that skin,
The bright that came from you, And dark, just little dark, as me…

You had the baby in your arms
“My God, I made it. How could I reach?”
It was the most beautiful fusion,
A dream come true, a fantasy
The magical moment you and I Yearned to be,
The crown of such a joyful project; A fruit of love; our seed.

Then I woke up,
And sadly cried this irony
A dream that won’t come true
Be cause of non-synchrony
A dream we both have wished, Planed carefully, bit by bit
But failed up when scheduling Deadlines, differently

Is not this last nite dream
A slap For you and me?
Would that dream be the closest You and I could ever be?
The phantom of our projects teaching this is not about a dream
A lesson about sand clocks,
Armageddon and choreography?

The deadlines of my dream,
Did tear your heart apart
The closeness that you wished,
Did not help us un-crack
I’ll treasure up a dream
Into the royal chamber place,
Keep it far from corroded,
My sweetest nice disgrace

Would you keep it inside,
As a charming reverie?
And use as the finale for this mad Long senseless kiss?
Under my ball and chain
That dream won’t let you sink
Until your real boat come,
And then you’ll be unleashed.

Fæ|Mine

I can see you on the other side
Your warm lips, do suggest good byes
I can see your boat leaving land
I can’t believe that this was it all

Cursed by wishing impossible,
Futility of a dream
Am getting dry, on this dessert
In a heating sad female famine

I can’t see you on the other side
I guess that might mean you are quite gone
I guess be cause I wasn’t ready
I guess somewhere something’s wrong
I guess I am tired of guessing
I guess I can’t guess anymore
I guess I became so disgusting
Not only for you, but for both

Cursed by wishing impossibles
Futility, frustration, bad things
Two languages and we are not bilingual
A dessert, a sad female famine

And am pregnant with a better future
And a miscarriage a better today
Must be the seed of something futile
Maybe the beginning of the end.

F|Low

Is that a tear,
What you got in your cheek?
Is it our hearts
What we feel going slow?
Is this chilling distance,
Cooling our melting love?
Is this being stuck,
A sick way of flow?

We’ve got so much against us
That maybe ignorance saves us
Naiveness to believe
One love could beat up this cell

You need me to unleash
The big nations you are containing
The virginal children wish
In plenty worlds expanded…

And I want you not to trust
To love in different patterns
The things we wish the most
Should maybe hold a while then

Is it a tear
That flows up thru your cheek?
Is that a stop
What we did with this love?
Is it this difference
Freezing us up?
Is it not flowing,
The best way to flow?

Volcanoes erupting,
As I whisper your love
Your sweetness is floating,
As this ship is sunk
I feel like a criminal,
Attending a case
A part feels like progress,
Another piece stops

Where do we lead
With these tears in our cheeks?
Do we hold our hands,
And then whisper again
I love you like no one,
But we can’t be as one
We are hurting each other,
Yet we still understand…

Your pain will fly high,
And will land safe and well
I will realize my dreams,
As I’ll be better man
It will be the difference
That brought us close
Maybe not flowing,
Is the best way to flow